Is it such a crime?
I mean, in a world where I could spend my Monday night ironically checking out the newest Gastropub renovated from a movie theater complete with a bronze mural of the Tenenbaums that serves some sort of imitation meat pie by a bearded man without a beard net, is my choice so bad?
I don’t think so, and yet… I am embarrassed. If I had gone to something like that Gastropub (most likely named “The Sweaty-Toothed Madman”), I could feel free to brag right now. I could boast in my most recent foodie/hipster/unique conquest.
But this I keep to myself. I hide it within. I keep my mouth shut and my ears open. In the lunch room at work, my head shoots toward the whispers.
My hope is shot down when I realize they’re discussing a distant relative and also Citizen Kane. (For the record, I would actually not be that disappointed if this were the topics of discussion during lunch.)
I, like what seems to be very few self-respecting women, can’t help myself. I like The Bachelor and not in an ironic way.
In fact, one of the highlights of my week is The Bachelor Party hosted by Jill.
(Are they hosted by Jill? I mean, they’re at Jill and Rachelle’s place, but Rob’s the one cooking. Rachelle is the one baking. Jill’s the one telling Rob to make a dirty diet coke after I whisper in her ear. Really, they’re all the hosts, and I’m the ultimate consumer.)
I think, quite possibly, we have the best The Bachelor Party in the world.
I sit there, as we all do, sprawled out on the couches, cocooned in blankets, with homemade buffalo chicken dip an arm’s reach away. I sigh when Chris Harrison enters the room in his navy suit. The sigh says, “I wonder if life can get sweeter.”
When drama happens–basically the whole show!–the entire party gets restless.
Arms start flailing! The buffalo dip is forgotten! Voices rise! (One of these three is not true.)
“She’s insane! How can he not see?!”
But it’s not all tearing these women down. I promise. Sometimes we find ourselves getting too involved: pulled in 25 different directions.
“Poor thing. She’s the Anne Hathaway of the group.” “Yeah. Trying too hard.”
And then, when they go home, things get rough for us all.
“I hate this part. I want to be the person who’s there to hold them and tell them that this was not the love of their life.”
I don’t know. Maybe I am crazy to be this involved. Maybe I’m one of those silly girls I always never wanted to be.
But I don’t think so. I mean, yes, I’m silly. I know this, but I like who I am: this silly, Bachelor-watching, fails-to-blog-regularly, talks-to-much, watches-old-60-minutes-episodes-and-also-tennis-matches-when-she-can’t-sleep girl. I know where I’ll be on my Monday night, surrounded by friends and food and watching a huge group of people search for love. I even hope two people find it. Maybe that makes me silly and the worst kind of viewer, but I also think it makes me silly and the best kind of viewer. Besides, I’d rather be there than at the Sweaty-Toothed Madman, choking down a home brew (obviously called “Barbaric Yawp”).
(I have to say, I kind of want to go to this
restaurant. Excuse me: “eatery experience.”)